It’s been a while hasn’t it? I swear, every year the months fly by and before we know it, another year is approaching. There has been so much on my mind (like usual) and well I wanted to talk to you. Over the past two months, I have realized that when you surround yourself with people that aren’t positive or motivating in any way, it will take a toll on you…big time. You can’t count on them to have a good influence on you whatsoever. If you have read my previous posts, I have been trying to better myself..my life and quite honestly, everyday is a learning process. I decided to cut people and things out of my life that were stressing me out on the daily basis. When I did that, I felt more at ease, more peaceful with myself. It kind of felt like the right thing to do. Still though, I feel a little lost. Don’t we all at some point? I don’t care who you are, if you’re human, you will feel that way sometimes. I’ve also learned that when your guard is up, it’s tough to let it back down. To trust someone. To open up to people. Let alone, to meet new people because you may think they might hurt you at the end. It’s not easy at all but you have to take a chance. Recently, I have met a few people that bring a smile to my face. People that don’t judge me for being myself. People that will hear me out no matter what and tell me it will be okay at the end.
I guess, these past two months I have felt many emotions that I can’t explain. Excited? Anxious? Confused? I don’t know. All I know is that I just turned a year older and I have sat down to think about what’s next for me. What is the next page on my book like? I can write that. I’m the only person that can because it’s my life. I think about how beautiful life can be if I think positively. If I keep my motivation going. If I surround myself with people who love me as a person. I know they will be there for me when I feel like quitting, they will be there to catch me before I fall to the ground…
Sure, I will have my bad days. Like any human being, right? Work will stress me out, people will stress me out, etc…that’s something called life. Life isn’t perfect but you can see the beauty in it. I have learned that you can’t let the negative things bring you down to the point where you can’t see the bright side of life anymore. You have to take that negativity and turn it into something positive. Easier said than done, right? It is hard to do sometimes, depending on what is bringing you down, but you have to have that inner strength in yourself.
Again, I don’t know exactly what is going to happen in my life because people come and go and things could be going great one day then turn upside down the next, but you know, I’m okay with that. I have accepted that that will happen sometimes.
Trust is something very difficult for me to do, but I am slowly learning to welcome people in with arms wide open. Of course, if they break that trust then- see ya- but one can try, right? Just like the old saying, don’t judge a book by its cover…which is indeed very true.
Until next time,